random update

I dont have much time to write my xanga now cos i m so busy in the office hahaha....and i cant be arsed to do it when i m back home.......

I really gotta stop embarrassing myself! I should be more sensible and be an adult.....I am gonna be in my late 20s in a couple of months and I am still acting like a 21 -_-''''' is this good or bad? but being responsible and adult-like is no fun and sound boring to me....

I hope life is going to change for better and I can still do what I like......

Dream again

Having that dream again....is that a sign? what does that mean?
is my subconsiciousness trying to tell me something or is that becos of what I am currecnly feeling projects it on my dream to get me away? Can someone tell me what does it me by having dream the same thing once a week?
Too many questions and no answer are there.....Can I have a more obvious sign? or it was obvious but I didnt realise?
Only it has been one day and my feelings are now changing....is that my self defence mechanism working again?
or is that I did not put in too much thats why I can have it changed so quickly?
too many questions.

I am losing my heart to write xanga!

ok broken pieces of memories.....what did I do....
This week:
found an authetic indian curry place in euston, got really drunk on a weekday and totally passed out at nite suffered from a reall horrible hangover and threw up at kings X right before work.....evryday is exhausting. I only got to sleep 6 hours everyday which is bad bad for me.
oh one thing, I duno how my boss and people got the idea of me as partying hard and loves drinking? Yes I drink! so does everyone else! but how did they know???!?!

how to define crazy?

is there really someone that you will be crazied about ? is that purely lust? untouchable hence crazy?

crazy about someone is becos you know you cannot have them? will it happen when you actually have someone? in that case, crazy about someone is only a fantasy and never should it be real.

so should we go with our fantasy feelings and trust there will be someone we crazy about or to think that is not real and just take what the reality is treating us?
do people wait for someone they are crazy about????

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Its been a busy week...my head is so full of things...a lot of drinking, jenny was sick again and it was funy that it happened especially she said she could handle cocktails.....and i was very tired for the whole week nearly fell asleep at work...and another fucked up friday at work....friday is never good for me!